The Book of Happiness and Sadness, 2018
4k and HD video, 8:35 min, sound
sponsored by Mondriaan Fund


1:16 min excerpt

The Book of Happiness and Sadness is a video based on one of my drawing diaries and my participation in Ayahuaska* ceremony. While leafing through pages of abstract drawings, I recite my psychedelic group experience. The narrative and the patterns in the drawings mimic human interdependency and the significance of belonging to a group versus individualism.

During the last year I have been working on the drawing diary: The Book of Happiness and Sadness. This book has almost become my daily routine; I was filling pages with circles, patterns and lines. This meditative method is something that I often practice in my work. It is quite an intuitive approach that allows me to think while drawing.

The other important part of The Book of Happiness and Sadness is the text I am reading in the video. In this story I tell about the sacred ceremony I participated in, - at a small pomegranates farm in Israel. Some important questions of a womanhood, such as self-realisation, relationships with others, and human interdependency in general, are raised in this monologue. Through a very personal story, I share my experience of a self-healing ritual and its use in contemporary globalised society.

*Ayahuasca is an entheogenic brew made out of Banisteriopsis caapi vine and other ingredients. The brew is used as traditional spiritual medicine in ceremonies among the Indigenous peoples of the Amazon basin.


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